October 2018 was a rough month. Besides the fact that we were in the middle of buying/selling a house and the fact that I always struggle at the beginning of the month, life changed completely. Our daughter was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes. It sucked, the four days we spent in the hospital were trying on us but especially on our daughter. She was only four and suddenly everything she knew was changing.
It’s been just under a year and although I have learned a lot, I feel like there’s still so much to learn about T1D. Every day is different- some good and some absolutely chaotic. I wish I could tell you I have all the answers, but I don’t. And maybe that’s why I’m here now, writing this. I want others to understand that somedays it’s okay to be mentally and emotionally exhausted. Somedays it is okay to cry and be frustrated about the normalcy your child will probably never know.
Writing helps me personally to work through things and maybe by posting about my daughter and her struggles (and ours), I can help someone else out. Or maybe get some support from someone who has dealt with it longer. I don’t know- I should be asleep but I’ve been trying to figure out how to better deal with the sudden intensity of my daughter’s tantrums. I got lost down a black hole in the Internet and did not end up in a good place. So, any thoughts or ideas anyone?